December cycle buddies

[HDT888]

Hi there, anyone having a December cycle?

We are waiting to start a FET cycle when my period arrives. xx

[KDN18]

Hi HDT88

I’m a December FET, day one of period today and a little nervous. I hope yours arrives soon x

[HDT888]

Hi KDN,

Hope your first day of meds goes okay. I understand that nervous feeling! Is this your first FET? It is my first FET after a failed fresh transfer in October. xx

[KDN18]

Hi HDT,

Sounds like we’re on a similar track, we had a failed fresh at the end of September. Which clinic are you at?
The meds are ok, they just make me sleepy, I’m having the best sleep lol

[HDT888]

I am at Leeds- how about you?

Haha sounds like a good side effect! I took my first dose last night and sadly they didn't make me sleepy. Infact I really struggled to sleep and then got woken up three times in the night by our two cats Got my fingers crossed for the sleepy side effect tonight haha!

[KDN18]

I’m Leeds too

I spoke too soon, the second night I had insomnia!
What date is your first scan?

[Kate32]

Hi Ladies,

Hope you're all doing ok with your meds?
Had my first natural FET today after a failed fresh transfer at the end of September. On Lubion, steroids and a whole other host of meds this time around however.

How are you both feeling with your next transfer coming up as it sounds like we were all quite close with last cycle?
Not sure if it's normal but I've found this time I've "shut down" to it all minus the emotional breakdown upon arriving at the clinic today not sure if I've gone into "protection" mode incase of more failure but feeling a bit strange about it all!!xx

[HDT888]

KDN: My scan date is the 8th- guessing you are a few days earlier?

You sleeping better? I am still having disturbed sleep- but I checked and it's not a side effect so who knows!

Hi Kate, got everything crossed for you for your 2ww! Did you have a lot of tests between your two cycles for those extra meds?

I think I know what you mean about shutting down- not sure if it is quite the same but I have found that I have not really been thinking about it as much this time round, I have just been getting on with everyday tasks whereas last time I think it consumed my thinking. Last time felt like such a big process with all the injections and all those unknown steps of egg collection, fertilisation and waiting to see how many made it to day 5. And in comparison a FET feels quite different. Maybe you get more time to process all the emotions in a fresh cycle whereas you don't in a FET?

Sorry to hear you were upset when you got the clinic- such a natural response as it is such a big and important event, hope the nurses and your OH were able to give you some comfort and reassurance. You have anything nice planned in your 2ww?
xx

[Kate32]

Morning HDT888.

Sorry to hear youre struggling with your sleep, it doesn't help the process does it. Perhaps it's subconscious excitement/worry/fear. All those lovely rollercoaster feelings we all know too well just bubbling up under the surface - hoping It settles soon though. I must say, the cyclogest pessaries they've put me on this time that I take at night knock me out and a documented side effect, fingers crossed you've got those or perhaps worth asking for - they're definitely less "messy" also

No tests as I have a lot of underlying conditions and have always been queried for a rare autoimmune condition which would support constant failure to implant (I'm on a 2 year wait to be privately diagnosed as the NHS have deemed me "too expensive "!!!! So my consultants supported throwing everything at it this time. Now it's over to my body and that little embaby who was hatching as it was transferred yesterday

Do you have any rough dates on when your transfer is likely to be?

Hoping for a very happy Christmas for us all - wouldn't it be the best present possible for a positive ❤

[HDT888]

Ah yes you are probably right...the joys of the subconscious ey! I do actually have cyclogest this time around so hopefully they have the same effect on me! The utrogestan are so messy aren't they. I had to make sure I took them lone enough before I was going out and about anywhere

Oh I am so sorry to hear that- sounds like you have been through a lot. It sounds as though you are well supported now through your clinic and hopefully on the best meds now to support you.

I think transfer should be around the 16th-ish, if all goes well with scans etc.
How are you getting on so far? What is your test date?

Oh yes, some positives for Christmas would be wonderful wouldn't it! x

[KDN18]

Hi Ladies,

Been sleeping a lot bette lately, thankfully.

I know what you mean about shutting down, it’s almost like we’re protecting ourselves from any future hurt. I have my scan booked for Tuesday and I think transfer will be around the 16th If everything goes well.

Sorry to hear of your journey Kate 32, fingers crossed we can all have some good news for Christmas/New Year.

[Kate32]

Morning Ladies!

Hope you're both doing ok and having nice fairly rested weekends?
Very exciting for you both to have transfers around the same time - it's such a huge support and not long to go now at all! Are you both on medicated cycles? Sorry, I forgot to ask previously!
How are you both feeling about everything this time around?
Totally agree with you KDN18 about shutting down, otherwise I don't know how you'd find the strength to go and go again, definitely found I was able to just carry on at "life" this time around and hoping the same for you both also!

I'm now 4 days post transfer and major anxiety kicking in - day 5 last cycle I was hemorrhaging and it came after sore boobs/cramping which has just started yesterday! Test day next Monday My bloody mind! I'd purposely left Xmas shopping for now so spent the last 4 days shopping from the comfort of home to distract myself but back to work tomorrow eeek!

Good luck for your scan on Tuesday also KDN18, another stone reached and another box of reassurance ticked

Xx

[HDT888]

Glad you have been sleeping better KDN! How you feeling about your scan tomorrow?

Morning Kate- nice weekend for me thanks but not very rested as been in the lakes walking all weekend wanted to come and do something now before transfer etc. How about you, hope you managed to do something nice?

Yeah I am medicated this time. I can see the advantages of natural and just going with your own cycle. Did you find it an ok process?

I am feeling okay about it all at the moment and deffo agree about being able to carry on at life more this time. Although must admit I am trying to avoid friends with colds and friends with unwell children as don't want to catch anything at the moment. Although have just woken up feeling a bit urgh today

Glad you had something to distract you this weekend and sorry to hear about sore boobs/cramping. Easier said than done as try not to worry as doesn't necessarily mean the same will happen again! Hopefully your work is busy and able to distract you! Xx

[Luckybabe37]

Morning ladies thought I would jump on it ok I remember ur from last time, hope all is ok I have not quite caught up with ur stories not bein on for a while.

Finally had my transfer yesterday so day one for me today my test date is 19th it seems miles away I had to hatching blast put back. Not sure I can wait till then thou I may test early.
Goin to have a read see what’s goin on just wanted to say hi and that I remember u all xx

[Kate32]

Hi all,

How is everyone doing?

KDN18 how did your scan go on Tuesday? Hope all went well and some reassurance for you with your body progressing?
Has excitement started to kick in yet with transfer day approaching?

Welcome to the group Luckybabe37. How are you feeling after your transfer yesterday? Great news it was hatching, an eager one you've got there!!! ❤ have you been on a medicated or natural cycle?


I spent all night in Hospital - severe referred shoulder pain and cramping. The faintest of lines on my test yesterday (5 days earlier than due to test) and been in to EPAU today, had a scan which showed nothing but a very thick lining and cervix closed but HCG levels low. Being monitored with another scan in 2 weeks but Care have pretty much just left me to it until test day apart from "hope you feel better soon" . Thank god for A&E when you need some mental support! Told it's not looking good so in kicks that gut wrenching failure and heartbreak. But, we try again!

Xx

[KDN18]

Hi Ladies,

Just playing catch up.

The scan Tuesday went well, my liking was at 7cm. I’m medicated and start the pessaries tomorrow with my transfer now the 14th and blood test earlier that week.

Sorry to hear about your hospital trip Kate32 and the lack of support, I have everything crossed for you test date in hope of a little miracle.

Hi Luckybabe37, congrats on transfer, get yourself some Christmas activities planned to occupy your kind.

HDT88 how are you feeling? I feel much calmer and less emotional this time with my FET compared to the natural cycle. Have you had your transfer date confirmed?

[Kate32]

KDN18 - amazing news!!! Not long to go now before that little embaby is back where he/she belongs! How are you feeling in yourself about it all? The 101 mixed emotions? Guessing that will give you a test date of right around Xmas? How very exciting and hoping for your Christmas miracle for you ❤

Thank you for your kind words. Think I've accepted failure and the consultants I've seen have been very straight up with me so not making me hold onto false hope if that makes sense, also I'm the biggest pessimist going, perhaps my safety net!


Did you say you're with the Leeds clinic? How are you finding them with support etc?

Xx

[KDN18]

Hi Kate32,

It all seems a little surreal this time round, a totally different experience to the injections. I totally have the 101 emotions, but feel I’ve been less hormonal this time. Yes test date of Boxing Day and then a nice break off work until the new year thankfully!

I’m sorry to hear your clinic hasn't been overly supportive, it seems clinics vary massively. My clinic has been very supportive of our circumstances thankfully, but I totally understand having a safety net , I’ve kind of withdrawn myself a little this time after tone failure.

Xx

[Luckybabe37]

Thanks ladies my cycle was with meds just not the injections am currently on day 3 and it’s dragging like hell.
My 2 year old keeps me ok my toes but am trying not to over do it which is very hard not to wen constantly up and down after him lol.
Am feeling ok after transfer just bloated not got any other symptoms at all so don’t know what to think.

Good luck ladies don’t give up hope xx

[HDT888]

Luckybabe- I remember you from the October group. I think you were waiting for your period to start. Happy to hear that it did and that you have had your transfer. A toddler to keep you on your toes sounds like a good distraction from the wait

KDN- oo I will be one day behind you. Had my scan on Thursday and it was all fine so blood test Tue and transfer on the 15th! Imagine if we'd been the same day at the same clinic lol! I am a bit like you, this feels like a completely different experience to a fresh cycle- feel much more myself and relaxed about it all. I think that may change a bit after transfer/towards test date but at the moment it deffo feels a bit surreal.

Kate- so sorry hear about your night in the hospital. That sounds horrible and especially if Care haven't been very supportive. How are things going now? Hope the pain has subsided? Xx

[Luckybabe37]

Hey ladies another day another step forward how are we feeling?
Won’t be long before ur transfer dates are here now won’t be far behind me.
Day 4 today and all I want to do is test lol I know it’s way too early and should wait till tomorrow at least but am just a nervous wreck and want to see too lines then I will relax till actual test date.

Kate how are u hunnie? Xx

[KDN18]

Luckybabe37 I hope embaby is nice and snug and everything os going well.

How are your feeling Kate32?

Not too far behind HDT88, but would have been nice to have a buddy on the day

[Kate32]

Those very faint lines

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KDN18, HD888 EEEK! The what must feel like the longest wait In the world is newly over. Only a few more days until those embabies are back where they belong!! How are you both feeling about it all mentally and emotionally? I know this time around, having my date for transfer stirred up a lot of raw emotions so hoping you're both doing ok

Luckybabe37 - how are you doing? TWW, what an mind f**k, please excuse my language but not sure how else to put it! Are you managing to keep distracted and hopefully no aide effects?

I feel totally and utterly lost. A&E, Gynae and EPAU all said expect the worst as bloods and urine was negative however I'm STILL showing a faint line and have done since Weds but its not getting any stronger, some days weaker so I'm wondering if its either chemical or MC? Any tips? I just feel so down and trying to grieve it but also seeing a line and mentally obsessing taking multiple tests a day my EPAU scan is booked for 22nd so that will confirm either way but its still another 2 weeks away - arghh+!!
Feel so let down by a couple of nurses at my clinic who are so insensitive so think I'll be feeding that back to the consultant this time - last time gave them benefit of the doubt but Care and compassion in this area should be a given!

Sorry for the essay ladies but genuinely really happy for you all progressing with your treatments and truly hoping for that magical Christmas for you all with that little surprise growing away nice and comfortably inside you ❤

[Luckybabe37]

Sorry ur goin threw this Kate really am and looking at ur test it’s really confusing I would feel same! U have to wait too weeks now? I had this and only way I knew for sure was with a clear blue it said 3 then dropped to 2 to 3 then finally 1.2 that’s how I know lost mine but they have done ur bloods what was level number?
They should know or see u sooner not make u wait!! Assholes!

Makes me mad it dose.
Hope it gets sorted soon for u no one should go there this for so long.
So I took a test today day 5 I know mad crazy but was a faint very faint line shocked as so early but goin to do one more in morning just to be sure then goin to wait till test date which is a week away still! X

[Luckybabe37]

Kdn I have bein having pains for last 2 days so I think they’re settled well I hope lol. Did little test saw faint line but too early think anything just yet will do one more tomorrow then wait. How u feeling xx