August Scans

[AngB]

What!! No, I don’t believe this. I was thinking I was going to get such a happy message I’m so so sorry, I thought one of us at least has to be lucky.
I wish there was something I could do. Sending you lots of love. Are you feeling like giving it another go?
Xx

[Smatty]

I know I thought it had worked this time aswell. I was even throwing up in the clinic toilet before my scan. They checked to see if the embryo had split but there wasnt anything else there just a fetus measuring 6+1 which I'm supposed to 7+4 with no heartbeat
Got to go back next week for a re-scan which is just prolonging the process.
I paid for a multiple cycle which I get 2 cycles plus any frozen transfers etc I just pay for medication each time it's worked out alot cheaper. So I still have another round to get through the way I'm feeling now is I dont even want to try the thought of going through another miscarriage is heartbreaking.
I'm trying to stay positive but I know a few people who are / have been through ivf and it seems to always end badly, I dont know anyone who has had a baby as of yet. Sorry for being so negative im sure there are lots of people who have had babys but I'm starting to lose hope and so scared that going to have to experience another miscarriage xx

[AngB]

Don’t say sorry, I’ve only done it once and it’s utterly exhausting! Almost happy to have a cycle to myself before I try again. I totally understand you feeling the way you do, and you must do what’s right for you and take time to heal.

I will just say, that my neighbour did ivf 7 times and has now got twin boys, and she told me not to feel down because she has lots of friends that it has eventually worked for. I know you are in the worst place of it right now and maybe don’t want to hear this stuff, but just wanted to say that I have heard positive stories.

Did they take any blood? When I went for my early scan they also wanted me to come back, but then my blood test came back very low hcg so they said to stop the progesterone and they cancelled my scan.

Do something nice for yourself tonight, really hope you feel a bit better soon xxx

[Smatty]

Thank you for telling me a postive story. I have read a few articles regarding ivf and its says most women give up to soon and to keep trying. I probably will start again as soon as I can I'm 38 now so need to get through as many goes before it's to late
No I asked about bloods last time and they said they dont normally do them for some reason. Which clinic are you with ? I'm with Nottingham.
I know what you mean about inbetween cycles its nice not to take medication every couple of hours lol
It becomes exhausting thinking about what you need to do next. I'm really hoping next time works for both of us and we get our happy endings xxxxx

[AngB]

I’m with Tunbridge Wells. I suppose they all have their own rules and stuff.

Yes, hopefully this next time is the charm for both of us. I’m going to call care if I haven’t heard from them by next week. Just want to know what the plan is.

All we can do is take it one step at a time and try to keep hoping

[Smatty]

Yeah suppose they do, it would be lovely to keep in contact with you. This is the first time I have spoken to anyone on the forum I used to just read what other people had wrote but it's been nice speaking to you over the past few weeks xxx

[AngB]

I would definitely like to stay in touch, it’s been so nice being able to talk to you through all the waiting and worrying. I’ll keep posting on here with updates, and I’m also on Instagram. Although it’s mostly just pictures of my dog
I hope you are feeling ok today xx

[Smatty]

Yeah it has been nice, send me your Instagram and I'll add you. I was talking to another lady on here yesterday in regards to level 1 and 2 immune testing if you have had failed attempts or reoccurring miscarriages. Have you heard of this before ? I dont really know anything about it but I'm definitely going to discuss this on my review with the consultant.
The worse part of today was waking up and for a split moment thinking I was still pregnant and then remembering what happen hitting me like a tone of bricks
Started to get a few pains in my hips and back area so jm really hoping it's the start of it, I've still got some of the strong painkillers that the hospital had prescribed from my last miscarriage so got them to hand thank god. Not sure how women go through it just on paracetamols xxxx
I really hope DarceyDoo is doing ok xxx

[AngB]

I have heard of the testing but never really looked into it, our initial problem was male factor so I felt we had overcome that problem with all the embryos, but now I’m starting to think maybe there’s also a problem with me so I’m also going to ask. I know the nhs will do further testing if you have 3 miscarriages and I’ve had 2…. So I don’t know. I’m also going to ask when the doc calls to review the cycle. See how expensive it is etc.

My Instagram is instagr_ang the pic is me on my wedding day and the name is Angela B.

I hope it’s over quickly for you. Mine happened 3 days after stopping the progesterone. I’m glad you’ve got the painkillers but I hope it doesn’t get that intense for you

[Smatty]

Yeah I think its definitely something worth looking into and discussing. I think level 1 checks for immunitys and level 2 goes more in depth from what I've been reading, I was looking down the list of things they test for and I already know I have one which is a blood clotting gene but I'm on inhixa for that. Well the lady I was speaking said she had both level 1 and level 2 which cost £2100 so assuming £1000 for each.
I do think it's really sad women have to go through 3 miscarriage to get tests via nhs especially through ivf.

Well the pain seems to have gone now but I'm still being sick the gift that keeps on giving lol

[DarceyDoo]

Hi ladies, I’m sorry I’ve not been on in a while. Smatty, I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. My heart breaks for you. This is such a cruel process and it’s so hard to keep going after failure. I can completely identify with how you are feeling, I feel like I’ve lost a lot of faith in the process after two losses in a row & I am absolutely petrified of another cycle ending in miscarriage. There are so many sad stories on these forums and it’s easy to forget the positive outcomes. I do have a 6 year old daughter though through a successful cycle 7 years ago so it can and does work.

My scan last week showed where the baby had been but there was nothing there unfortunately. My blood levels had also dropped from 4996 on the Friday to 125 by the Wednesday so I was told I could stop medication & the bleeding started on Friday & is still quite heavy. We have a follow up review on the 27th. I’m sure we will go again but like I said I’m so scared we will miscarry again. I’m going to ask about further tests but as I have already had a successful pregnancy previously I’m not sure if they’ll recommend anything like the level 1 & 2 tests, they seem to think it’s embryo related.

I hope you are both doing as well as can be. I would love to keep in touch with you xxx

[Smatty]

I'm so sorry DarceyDoo to hear that you to have suffered a loss it's just so heartbreaking. I'm glad to hear that you have had a successful pregnancy through ivf it gives me a bit of hope for the future. I hope you are starting to feel a bit better about things and hope you get some answers on your review.
I've tried booking a review today but my consultant is a busy man so have been told once an appointment becomes Available someone will contact me.
I'm still on medication and havent had any bleeding, so I've got my second scan on Wednesday. I remember last time it was such a long process from finding out, going through the miscarriage and then bleeding for 6 weeks. I just want it to be over now
I keep telling myself there must be something else wrong as both pregnancys stopped growing at 6 weeks 1 day however the first baby had a heartbeat up until 9 weeks that was the only difference. What are the chances of that

[DarceyDoo]

Thanks Smatty, I am doing ok thank you. I have good moments & bad moments but each day that passes is slightly easier. I’ve been staying with my parents since it happened as we were here on holiday when I started bleeding so I’m not looking forward to going home tomorrow. When we left home everything was fine & I was still pregnant.

I’m so sorry that you are also going through a loss & like you say the fact that the process is so drawn out really doesn’t help us move on & start to process things. For me the hardest part was the waiting/limbo period between the bleeds & having the miscarriage confirmed. I hope you don’t have to wait too long for your review appointment. If this is your third loss will you be entitled to any tests through the NHS? I think it’s so wrong we have to go through the heartache of three miscarriages before we are entitled to any support but it might be worth asking as the tests are so expensive through Care. I will be thinking about you on Wednesday. Sending you lots of love & hugs xxx

[AngB]

Hi both,

Can’t believe we all got unlucky this time hopefully next time we will all have positive news.

I called the clinic and basically nothing had been down on my file so disappointed as it’s taken us over 1.5 years to get to this point, so over waiting. Anyway, I’m on the LIST now for review, so hopefully not too much longer until I can at least have a timeframe of when we can try again.

I will keep updating on here when I find things out. Really hope you guys are keeping strong, I think we must all be very positive people to keep dealing with these disappointments! Lots of love to you both xx

[Smatty]

Its so sad we all ended with bad news but the thing I keep telling myself is to not give up. Each day that goes by it does get easier.

DarceyDoo I've only had 2 Miscarriages so doubt I would get any support through the nhs but I will be asking my G.P to see what he says. I've managed to get a review booked in for 2rd September with another consultant, to ask about what test I can have before eventually starting again. Suppose it will give me time to feel like myself again.

Oh AngB I hope you get a review booked in that must of been annoying after what everything, I started my frozen transfer after 1 normal period so I would of thought you could start pretty quickly.

I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow as I can stop my medication and move on. Doubt they will tell me anything different from last Wednesday.

I'm going to view a puppy on Thursday so might have a new member to the family after all.

Sending you both lots of love xxx

[AngB]

Aw that’s a great idea! I got my dog 8 months ago, it was really hard in the beginning but now I love her so much - probably too much!

You are totally right about not giving up, need to keep going. That’s great you’ve got a review booked, just a couple of weeks away. I hope you are ok tomorrow, I will be thinking of you xx

[Smatty]

Yeah we rescued a puppy a few years back but she ended up staying at Mums as she bonded really well with Mums other dog and felt so bad taking her away when we I moved into my house.

Well I went to my second scan this morning which showed the baby measuring smaller. I've decided to go with or try a natural miscarriage rather than take medication this time.
So it's just waiting game been told to stop all medication so hopefully it wont take to long xxx

[AngB]

So sorry smatty. Just because we know it’s coming I was still sad when it was confirmed. Really hope it isn’t like last time, I didn’t bleed for that long with either of mine. Like you say I hope it’s quick and you can move forward with next steps

[Smatty]

Yeah it has been another sad day. The nurses are so lovely at care, I got a big hug as I was leaving which was nice xxx

[AngB]

That is really nice xx

[Smatty]

Hi both,

Just thought I'd see how both of you are doing?
Have you both had your reviews yet? Any news on start dates?

I had my review on the 2rd which went well. My consultant is going forward to my g.p to get all the tests done through them as I've had 2 mmc and 2 failed to implant so slightly relieved as I started worrying about the money side of things.
Also they are changing my protocol from long to short.
Decided to take a few months off from ivf so probably start again in the new year.
My natural miscarriage wasnt as bad as the medicated one so that was a bonus. Feeling alot better now my hormones have gone back to normal lol
And been busy with my new little pup Milo

Anyway I hope you are both well xxx